29 March, 2010.
Back from Church camp!!!
Had to rush down after work on Friday (cabbed up to 4 times that day).
Had dinner with BASIC, and felt like an alien, cause i've been away from church stuff for quite awhile as i was unable to face up to something. Hoping now that i will find the answer to myself at this retreat.
After dinner we had ice breaking games. Hmm...in PAIRS. BASIC only has 3 guys including me. However Aaron was unable to attend. Thus leaving Brandon and i only. Like gay sia we partner each other. Luckily Lynn and Benedicta partnered each other. Not so bad. Got gay and les pair. HAHA!!!
Ended up doing forfeit coz we didnt do the couple actions. So whole BASIC decided to do forefeit tgt. Had to do more stupid actions infront of the other Youth Communities. Super paiseh.
Then we were split up into PAIRS again. Lucky kena girl some others kena guy. WHY lucky? Cause we had to COUPLE WALK around the church in the middle of the night and get to know each other better through the park too, and pray for one another. Quite an experience actually, coz u get to open up secrets to one another without fear of anything. Sooooo i had to partner this girl called Audrey who was in sec4 LOLS.
Throughout the camp there were alot of P&W sessions and self reflecting. P&W was damn cool man! Gained back the lost feeling i had of Christ since sec3. One word? ENRICHING.
Slept that day in the hall. Girls on left, guys on right.
Slept on mattresses WITHOUT any sleeping bag. Shivered the whole night, and kept waking up too. =P
Second day of retreat~
Had morning mass. The bread of Life was dipped into wine, the blood of Christ of us. *thumbs up*
Played games and stuff too. Had reflections, P&W and sharing sessions in our groups. Got to know new people as well, and that we are never alone.
The evening part was the most touching part.
There was this session where we have the 4 stations (Taken, Blessed, Broken and Chosen, i think should be these 4).
And behind us were all the facils in pairs for the praying over one by one for us.
Confession was in the room beside.
All these were not forced on us to do. But i felt i was really burdened by all the things that were happening to me during the past few months and years and still couldn't forgive myself for that incident over 4 years back.
Went to the station of Broken. Embraced my sorrows on the rock and prayed. And for some reason i started to tear. I could feel that God was with me, after i'd strayed away from him for so long. As i looked around i saw some other youths already breaking down in tears. After embracing my sorrows into the rock i placed it back into the tank of water.
And due that next week was the holy week, I went for confession in the next room. As i was queuing up my heart felt very heavy. Than words came up into my mind saying, "Ask Father about that burden."
When it came to my turn for confession, after confessing my sins, i decided to finally pluck some courage to ask Father on how i could lift this burden of guilt of my shoulders, in which after that i really felt the joy that i've missed after these 4 years of life. Praise the Lord!!!!!!
Played games on 3rd day.
By which everything ended in the late afternoon. Had lunch with BASIC too. Hope to know the members better and that i'll feel acknowledged soon too.
By now i was already losing my voice through all the singing and was also spritually drained. LOL.
Finally found the answer that i was searching for. And prayed for all my friends too. And im very sure God heard my prayers as he is always with me.
=)
Oh yes, and i bathed in the toilet that could not be locked. So i had to drag a chair in to jam the door shut.
