~Nicholas~

27 October, 2009.

Pain turns to hatred and is burned into darkness which accumulates till one can't take it anymore.

This cycle will never cease to stop. Think about it carefully and you'll agree with me.

To be able to find one that truly cares for you, for me is impossible.

If you were in my shoes you'll understand completely. To find a partner to JUST show care and concern to you is sooo hard. Ya...like emo now. Start of the week i did not know why my heart started beating very fast when i saw her. Its been like ages since the............that thing. How i was to know she already had a stead? FREAK. You guys can blame me. But its not easy for someone to find another person who is willing to stand by you through hard times. They may be just giving you a false front.

Preet will sure kill me for blogging about emo things again. =P

I just can't help it. At least i feel abit better after typing all these frustrations out. Why? No one to tell these stuff to. So tell it to the computer.

These days many r/s all one sided. I feel sad for those who go unappreciated or ignored. Maybe cause i can feel it if i'm in their shoes. Already am. If i had power i think i might just scorch the earth in darkness. Heart just drops and stop beating.

Now im just saying in general. So those out there reading this, don't get annoyed or anything.

Guys these days show so much commitment. Willing to risk it all for the girls. Isn't that what girls hope for in their boyfriends? Or the ones they love? I don't get it.

There are many good people out there. Perfect ones you might be thinking. Actually there is. But so far what i get is that all the 'perfect' ones are taken. Some of my friends and i are already giving up on love. Like whats the point. You put in 101% but the results are nothing more than 3%. Yea damn pathetic. We know.

I had a friend who had problems and talked to me about it. Told him to sing it all out, since he likes to rock out. Singing helps for me too. But seriously...many of us, or you can say me. May never have the same perspective of Love anymore. Its just to tormenting. To chase after someone who might already be attached? Or to chase after someone but at the same time you reject another girl, but in return you get treated unfairly.

I don't know.

I'm sure there are people out there be it guys or girls, who have never stead before.

Well...don't fret over it. I'm definitely one of them.

Gona drown sorrows with a bro soon.

You can drink your water while i drink my milo.