~Nicholas~

19 January, 2009.

These days i'm not sure which path i'm walking on already.

Am i becoming the person whom i'm trying NOT to be?
Hatred and anger fills me up these days. However, someone out there once taught me to compress these mixed feelings into a small cube and place it deep within the heart, till when a time arrives for me to release it. Theres a limit to how far i can hold on.
However, my worst fear is that when the time comes for me to release it, i myself won't be able to control it. Thus, leading to unnecessary troubles.

Can't take it when friends take me as a spare tyre, or more rather a homework boy.
I've seen people going up to my friends acting all cute and nice when they need help with homework, if not they act all stuck up and NOT give a damn later on if you need help.

Friends appear to be be friends on the outside, but when the time comes for you to see their real self, things take a turn for the worse. Some friends contradict themselves, at the same time think their still right. I know i have no say in this matter, so i'd usually not say anything if they happen to say anything.
Some friends on the other hand, are true friends, not matter what the change in their lives, they stay true and loyal to you. I'm glad for having the few true friends that i have with me throughout the years.
Some friends promise you to help you settle stuff, but in the end they're just talking, but they didn't do it. Action speaks louder than words.
For those people who keep their words to their friends. I hope that you people continue to keep your word to your friends, though they may not know how to appreciate you as a good buddy now.

Real True to you friends will stand by you WITHOUT you having to hinting to them or rather you asking them.
You can tell this through the simplest of things such as waiting for you after class.
Automatically taking notes and work for you after school if you're sick.
BUT
this works both ways. If the person whom you are taking for are those ungrateful morons who walk the earth then i tell you, its no point.